Hello everyone. What a weekend this has been. It was wonderful to see so many friends and loved ones at church. I was able to stay at church for the whole 3 hours, and that was great. We had great lessons, and even though I was wiped out when I was finished, I'm glad I could stay. I found out that I got a little weak if I stood for too long, but I was all right sitting down.
Yesterday was a rough day for me. I guess I got the delayed-reaction effects of chemo. I just felt kind of yucky all day long. I laid around most of the day, although I was able to get some of the wash done. Nothing gets done very fast these days...but we DO have clean sheets! I didn't feel like eating at all, and taking any kind of medication is just not easy. I think I am definitely a "rebel eater." The thought of putting anything in my mouth and trying to swallow it, is really difficult for me. I am thankful for the feeding tube, because when I don't feel like eating anything, at least I'm getting some nutrition in me. Spence wins the prize as great caregiver of the world. He is so patient and caring to me all the time. He is so aware of me all during the night, and is ready to help me in any way he can. He continues to make me feel so loved. It's funny how the "little things" really mean the most. Last night I kind of fell apart at dinner. Brady immediately got up from his chair, and came over to give me hugs and a back rub. WOW--did that make me feel good! Kelsey is always checking in with me, to make sure if I'm eating anything or how I'm feeling. She is such a sweetheart.
I am trying to think of ways to combat the feelings when I feel yucky--and suggestions would be welcome. I have always loved music, and get a lot of comfort from that--sometimes I need spiritually uplifting music, and sometimes I need fun music like "Wicked," or other Broadway shows...or jazz, which reminds me of my mom and dad. I like to read, but when you aren't feeling good, sometimes it's hard to concentrate on that. Anyway, if you have any ideas that have worked for you, please send them on. Thanks for all your kind thoughts, posts, and fun words. I hope you know each and every day that I love you...and am so thankful for all of you. Tomorrow is the beginning of the second week of treatments--one week down! HOORAY!! Love you lots, Louise