Hello everyone! Here I am again--we are having beautiful spring weather in Arizona--this is why people live here, for this fabulous time of year. I have had a couple of firsts (no big deal to most people, but firsts for me in quite a while)--today I am wearing flip flops--normally, I am in slippers or slipper socks or closed shoes...so today I broke out the flip flops--no big deal, but kind of for me. Two nights ago we ate at Subway, and I ate almost ALL of a 6-inch sub. WOW--that was another big step for me! And I loved it--it was absolutely delicious. :) So, that's the latest update on my teeny tiny baby steps that I take.
I had some thoughts last night as I went to bed. I am reading a book called Making Sense of Suffering--it is very good, and easy reading. One of the experiences was about a woman who was suffering from pancreatitis. She talked about how she was just enveloped during that time with feelings of comfort and spiritual strength. Obviously, it was a very painful and difficult time for her. I thought of my experiences and the feelings I had in the hospital...and how they were different from hers. In the hospital, I felt like I was just at survival mode--that I was just trying to make it through each hurdle, and I didn't have many deep or spiritual thoughts at the time--I was just trying to get through. I know I expressed to Spence sometimes that I didn't know if I was going to make it. Some of my more spiritual moments have come SINCE that time--now the things I read or pray about seem to have a deeper impact on me. Right then I was just trying to endure--I felt the love of others, but I have felt it more deeply in ways since I am not at such a survival level. Does that make any sense? I just know that some of the kindnesses that were extended to me at that time have come to mean more to me recently. So, if I didn't express enough gratitude at that time, I am feeling it more deeply now. So, for all your thoughts, prayers, emails, blog comments, and just for being you, I hope you can feel my heartfelt thanks. Life is good, and it is better because we can share the ups and downs with each other. Much love and thanks always, Louise